Damned

The hurt,the pain, the anguish,
The love , the caress, the trust,
The resentment,the anger,
The friendship, the companionship...
It's all that I had, which I never saw ,
What I heard, you never said.
What you said, I never heard.
When I was there, you were not,
Now you are there, I am not.
My head pounds and my heart is heavy,
In the green meadows I wander aimlessly,
All I want to say is sorry...
Steal the moments of happiness again,
The mist in your eyes condense.
I am far..far away, on a distant land
Ensconced by my guilt and regret,
To never say what I meant,
I hear you shout, I hear you scream
I confess, beg for a chance to redeem.
 I now roam like a damned spirit,
Some amends, some gaps to knit.
I need time on loan to borrow,
Alas it's too late I know.
You exist and I am just a dead thought,
My guilt with me in my coffin will rot.